Thanks to everyone for the kind words and suggestions. I am happy to report that the stomach issue has resolved. It left as unexpected as it came. No rim or reason just gone. I was interesting but at this point am not even going to try to figure it out. I did end up going to the doctor Thursday morning, because Wednesday night my stomach was gurgling so bad. I did take Maalox twice that night. The doctor did some blood work and wanted me to get a stool sample to return to the office. Good and bad is that I have not had a sample to provide. Go figure. They did call and left a message saying that they had medicine for me and that the doctor want to schedule a gall bladder ultrasound. But not sure if this is necessary at this point.
Every since Thursday I have been totally off on my eating and I am ready to get back in the swing of things. I have a lot of options on what I want to do with food at this point and truthfully I am just not sure what I want to do. I am not liking the uncertainty and I am not even truly sure where this is coming from.
In on regard the vegetarian diet has gone extremely well for me and I have been able to stabilize my weight and that has been such a rewarding and peacful place. But then in another regard I am not sure if I can build the muscle mass I am hoping to get with a vegetarian diet. I see several girls in the gym whose muscle tone is amazing and you can see such great definition from them without them even flexing. At the root of this I must ask myself, why? What am I trying to prove? And what point will I be happy in my own skin? Can I be happy in my own skin?
They are deep questions but ones that I believe are truly worth looking at.
I have done some amazing stuff with my body that I never, ever thought possible. I have transformed it from a morbility obese person to a fit and lean women. I should stand proud and not hide in the shadows feeling like I have not yet arrived, because I have.
I guess the title of my blog says it all, Ever Winding Road! Are you happy in your own skin? Can you look in the mirror and truly be happy with what you see? I would love to hear you thought on this question.