Monday, October 19, 2009


I just wanted to write and thanks everyone who made a comment to my last blog entry. It touched me deeply and I wanted you all to know that.
Yesterday was a good day in the eating front and I wrote down meals for the whole week this include all six meals each day. I think this will help me stay focused and no wondering what I am going to eat.
I am trying to keep cost down in our grocery bill and was worried that I would not be able to continue eating on my plan. I was pleasantly surprised when I went with a pad of paper and a pencil and wrote down everything there was available. I think we tend to think we don't have enough and this is probably why I way over spend at the grocery store. There is plenty to eat this week and I have a sense of peace around that. Thanks to Kim for always being there to support me. Not sure what I will do once I am done working with her in November but I am going to treasure all the time I have left.
It is Monday and it is chest and back day today. I love lifting weights but the cardio well that is another story. I am just dreading it. But I keep telling myself that it is only 35 minutes and then it is done. So I will go prepare my preworkout smoothie and head to the gym.
Thanks again to everyone for all your wonderful comments.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

It has been quite some time since I have blogged and I have thought to do it many time but wasn't sure what to write. I feel like I continue to struggle with the same old things and the past few days have been no different. I have been adding additional food in my diet and today I am not feeling so good about it. But when does it stop? Does it every stop?
Do I feel good about the way I look? yes Would I like to continue to improve? yes.
But I also want to live a little... Enjoy food... Is there a way to have both? I continue to struggle with these questions.
I have eaten quite a bit of food today and not even sure how to pick up the pieces and move on. I guess I will start by having a chicken salad for dinner what I planned on having and just go from here. I guess that is all I can do. Beating myself up over what has already occurred is useless and serves no purpose.
I pray and hope and some point I will find a happy medium along the way.