Sorry I have been gone for so long! But I had some really hard decisions to make. We got both kids off to school and now our house is empty, quiet and clean. Very strange.
I know I have talked about how unhappy I have been with my trainer and how torn I was on what the right thing to do was. Well I FINALLY made a decision. I told him yesterday that I would not be training with him for awhile. I did not go into all my reason I didn't feel like it was necessary. I told him it was financial which is not a complete lie. My husband has been out of work for 14 months and I have yet to find anything as well. I do believe this will help relieve a little stress not having to fork out that money each month. But of course with leaving comes all kinds of fear. Can I do this on my own? How will I do this? What should I eat? What kind of goals should I set myself? The list goes on and on. I am not sure of all the answers right now but I do know one thing I feel at peace with my decision and I am ready to move forward. His constant pyscho babble with not be missed. His constant hounding me about my weight will not be missed. I just want to train hard and transform my body!
I girl that I have know from Sparkspeople for quite some time has an online training service. I trust her and I will be talking with her today to pick her brain on where I should go from here. I have talked to quite a few people the last few days and the more I talk to them the more confused I become. Most just want my money and want to train me but I do not want to be put in a situation that I just got out off. I deserve more than that. I am going to listed to my gut! So far there is one guy that I would consider going to if I am not able to do this on my own. I am going to give myself three month doing it SOLO and see what happens.
I will finish up training with my trainer until the end of the month and then the new journey begins.
Stay tuned I will be blog my new journey.
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