Yes, I don't know, No!

I have never been good about making a decision and today was no different. One of my "BIG" dreams it to run my own restaurant. I have never cook in a restaurant and so I made a decision a few weeks ago that I would attempt to find a job working in a commercial kitchen. This would give me a big wake up call as to what it is "REAL" like. I saw a job for a cook position at a local nursing home. I filled out the application and pretty much forgot about it since I have ZERO experience. They called me today and wanted to interview today. Of course I was a nervous wreck! I talked to my husband and he cheered me on and told me I had NOTHING to lose. He told me to just be myself. So that is what I did. I really enjoy the lady who interviewed me and she was willing to give me a chance if I wanted. I would have to act quickly if I wanted to take it. She told me if I wanted the job that I would have to have a drug test and physical today and go to orientation tomorrow and Friday. I sat there in shock and did not know what to say. When I finally could speak I told her that I would to found out from my current employer if I could get tomorrow and Friday off and that I would call her and let her know by 3:00. It was around 1:30 when I left. My mind was racing and I had know idea what to do. First I told myself Yes and then I said I don't know. I called my husband immediately for support. He is always so calm in these kinds of situation. He told me that I would have to decide for myself if it was really worth it or not and only I could decide. I had to really sit down and think about it. It was really difficult because I really wanted to have an opportunity to work in a kitchen and get some experience behind my belt but it was such little notice and the following week I would have to do orientate and work my other job which meant working seven days. I just didn't think I could do it. I finally made my decision if they truly wanted me to work there they would work something out. I called her and said that I was not able to make orientation with such short notice from my other employer. She said ok and maybe next time. I have to admit I was heart broken. I felt like this would only be my opportunity. Deep down inside I felt what they were asking from me wasn't fair to me and that I deserved better. I know part of my emotions was based on not wanting to let anyone down but it ultimately it came down to what was best for ME. I really am proud of myself and this was huge for me.

This past weekend I saw a recipe from Heather for Seitan. I cooked it up and it has sat in my refrigerator every since. I had no idea what to do with and I have to admit I was scared to try it. But I decided to do it tonight.

I have a recipe for Mongolian Beef and I thought it was a perfect way to hide it from my husband.

I started of by cutting up the seitan in to beef type slices and coating it with cornstarch.

Next I cooked it up in oil until it started to brown.

Then I added the sauce. Doesn't it look delicious? The sauce was a combination of soy sauce, water, brown sugar and red pepper flakes.

I served it over brown rice. The verdict: I "LOVED" it! I am so glad that I was willing to give it a chance. And for my hubby: I almost had him fooled he said it looked just like beef but it had not quite as "robust" flavor. I don't if he was trying to convince himself that he didn't like it as much as beef or not. I am really looking forward to cooking with it again.

I also added a delicious big salad to go with it. I haven't been eating quite as much vegetables as I would like so this was perfect. This meal was very satisfying and I am still full.