Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Emotions

Emotions that I try so hard to keep in check at all times came flooding out of me today with out a warning. I was frightened by them and was unprepared how to handle them. I have always had difficulty reaching out to anyone and telling them how I truly felt. Today I called someone. Not a friend or family but some one I knew could help me acknowledge what I was feeling. I held the phone in my hand for a long time before I made the call but I did.
I know that I have put on quite a bit of weight and have extreme difficulty excepting that but yet I do not want to be defined by a number. So I continue to stay away from the scale. Is it good or bad I don't know but I do not want to react with extreme diet measures that is NOT how I want to live my life. I have to admit I am frustrated. So I sit with my thoughts which is difficult .

4 comments:

Kelly said...

Stay away from the scale. Just get back to your healthy lifestyle and the rest will fall in place.

You can do it. Believe.

Brit-Man said...

Well you know me by now, you just have to e-mail me sometime or message me on FB, that goes without saying.

Whatever you do, be proud of everything you have done and keep remembering that you ARE worth it and you ARE a special person.

You're ana amazing Lady and the world needs you.

:-) :-).

Matt

Heather said...

It can only get better. Big hugs to you. Email if you need to, k?

Josbroad said...

Hiya... how are you? Life sure does churn out the obstacles one after the other huh! Hey, rest assured you are not alone and better still it does get better, yet not forgotten so use it to your advantage and flip it to a positive. Very nice blog. Keep well!